September down, October to go!

Its October...YAY!! I am so excited, for more reasons than one. I love October, it has to be one of my most favorite months. It cools off and I get to wear my sweatshirts, breath crisp air, see all the beautiful colors changing, enjoy smells like pumpkin spice, and apple cinnamon, and finally HALLOWEEN!! I love having kids and dressing them up, it is so much fun. Then to watch them go around and get so excited about collecting candy and goodies ( I swear Takara thinks it should be Halloween a good portion of the year :) haha).
Another thing I will be looking forward to this month is...a new baby!!! Finally the month has come and I am waiting patiently... sort of...to squish and love on a brand new baby. Does that ever get old? I am a little nervous for this one because not only do I totally feel unprepared, but there are going to be some medical issues we have to address after he/she is born.
At my 20 week ultrasound they noticed the baby had some fluid in the kidney's. I went in for a second ultrasound at 31 weeks to be sure it wasn't getting worse. Thankfully it wasn't worse but it wasn't better either. I went in for another ultrasound at 35 weeks for another kidney measurment and was told the radiologist wanted me back for another ultrasound. At my 36 week appt my Dr. decided that since I only had about 4 weeks left at that point there wasn't much they were going to be able to do and an ultrasound wasn't going to be able to fix anything. luckily I was told that there isn't a blockage, if there were, my amniotic fluid would be low and the kidneys would continue to get bigger.
So the next step is to deliver the baby, inject dye into the bladder, and do an ultrasound on the baby to see if there is reflux going to the kidenys from the bladder. They will then decide if its something we can watch and wait to see if the baby will grow out of or if its serious enough to do surgery (cross fingers for NO!)
I am a little nervous about all of this because I know how much of a wreck I am emotionally after I deliver a baby. I cry when my babies get shots, I go through a lot of hormone changes and I'm just not sure how stable I will be. The thought of someone poking and prodding at my tiny new baby just makes me shake. My worst fear is that not only will I have to wait to see if there will have to be any surgery, but I will be dealing with this all by myself. We are at a point where Evan HAS to work. He has a week of vacation that he will be using when the baby comes but that means its all regular time. Our paycheck will be low and our bills will not change, so it will be tight for a couple weeks. What happens if I find out this baby has to go to a bigger hospital or have surgery?! Evan will not be able to take any work off to help me and that scares me alot. So I'm really praying that everything will be normal and we won't have to worry about it.
On a more positive note, I am so excited to see what this little smush is! Takara is grasping the concept that there really is a baby in my tummy, but asks me why we need a baby. I tell her that we have a lot of love to give out and we want a bigger family. Takara is really into the 'why' stage. It wouldn't matter if SHE made the mess everything is still 'why'. For example, Takara you need to pick up all these toys, 'why?' because you made a mess 'why?' I don't know Takara YOU tell me why. I am really enjoying my family. I wish it didn't rain this past week, the leaves on our grass were perfect for raking and jumping into but now everything is drenched and muddy. Im sure we will have other days but I'm really hoping we don't get anymore moisture for awhile.
Well thats all I can remember to blog about for now. I've got one thing on my mind lately and thats pregnancy and labor so its hard for me to remember any of the fun things that we did in the past month. Hopefully I can do some back blogging and add some pictures later!