Happy New Year!!

The last day of 2010, new years eve, aka...my birthday. I'm not sure why but I really don't like my birthday. Not because of the day, not because its so close to Christmas, or that its only a few days after Takaras. I just don't like it. It may shock a lot of people but I really do not like to be focused on, for ANYTHING. I begged Evan when we got married if I could just stand up at the front with him and not have to walk down the isle. I didn't want everyone to stand and watch me...watch me fall, trip, pee my pants, whatever. Most girls tear up when they see their husband-to-be waiting to take their hand. I could only cheese out like a complete idiot to keep from passing out. Even the bishop made a comment on how nervous I looked, in front of EVERYONE. I love to play piano and sing...but not in front of people. Its weird because generally I'm very outgoing and have no problem talking to anyone. So back to the subject...I turn 24 today. That seems crazy to me. 24 is not old...not old at all, but I always forget how old I am. I know this sounds weird, but I really do. I ask Evan all the time and he knows. I know that I am 3 1/2 years younger than him but I forget how old he is too..so it really doesn't help. I know the years we are born so when someone asks I have to do the math before I answer, lame I know. Anyways I feel that this "lack" of social focus has left a lot of people wondering who I am. I am not quiet or shy, the very opposite. I'm sure I annoy alot of people with my forward responses and off the wall comments. I really don't try to be like that...its just me. I've seen a few of the 30 day challenge posts and got to know alot about people that I didn't know. So starting tomorrow I think I will try this 30 challenge and maybe I'll find something new about myself too!