Happy New Year!!

The last day of 2010, new years eve, aka...my birthday. I'm not sure why but I really don't like my birthday. Not because of the day, not because its so close to Christmas, or that its only a few days after Takaras. I just don't like it. It may shock a lot of people but I really do not like to be focused on, for ANYTHING. I begged Evan when we got married if I could just stand up at the front with him and not have to walk down the isle. I didn't want everyone to stand and watch me...watch me fall, trip, pee my pants, whatever. Most girls tear up when they see their husband-to-be waiting to take their hand. I could only cheese out like a complete idiot to keep from passing out. Even the bishop made a comment on how nervous I looked, in front of EVERYONE. I love to play piano and sing...but not in front of people. Its weird because generally I'm very outgoing and have no problem talking to anyone. So back to the subject...I turn 24 today. That seems crazy to me. 24 is not old...not old at all, but I always forget how old I am. I know this sounds weird, but I really do. I ask Evan all the time and he knows. I know that I am 3 1/2 years younger than him but I forget how old he is too..so it really doesn't help. I know the years we are born so when someone asks I have to do the math before I answer, lame I know. Anyways I feel that this "lack" of social focus has left a lot of people wondering who I am. I am not quiet or shy, the very opposite. I'm sure I annoy alot of people with my forward responses and off the wall comments. I really don't try to be like that...its just me. I've seen a few of the 30 day challenge posts and got to know alot about people that I didn't know. So starting tomorrow I think I will try this 30 challenge and maybe I'll find something new about myself too!

I haven't had a lot of time to update the blog although I did pretty good this month anyways. Its a good thing I was busy the last couple weeks because I had a very sad day and had a miscarriage. I can honestly say I never want to experience that again. Not that anyone would, but I love my babies so much and even losing them at this early stage still breaks my heart. On a lighter note we had a very busy Christmas! My little girlies are getting sooo BIG and Kimi is even trying to potty train herself. She's 17 months right now so it seems really early since Takara was so stubborn and wouldn't cooperate until she was 2 years and 5 months old. But Kimi wants to be just like big sissy so it works out for us...for the most part. We wrestle around trying to keep her diaper on but she just doesn't want to deal with it. Anyways after Christmas we celebrated Takaras 3rd Birthday!! I can't believe I have a 3 year old! We had a great turnout with lots of people food...and of course presents. Here are some pictures of the festivities.

My little doll Kimi!!

My little BIG princess Takara!!

Here we are at Great Grandma Allreds house...they aren't shy.

Christmas morning playing with their new babies. I originally got these to prepare the girls for another baby in the house. I wanted them to love and cuddle and get to know what a baby really is. Takara probably doesn't rememeber what it was like when we first had Kimi. Actually it really feels like she's always been here, I can't even remember what its like without them!

The girls with all their loot. It was a rough night since we spent the night at Grandmas so the girls were still pretty tired even while opening all the presents.

Here's Takara's birthday cake. Kai Lan theme if anyone didn't know. I actually really like this cartoon. I think its so cute, and I love listening to the girls interact with it.

Another angle with Rintoo the tiger.




and heres Kia lan

The dessert table. I was pooped after making all this. I made it all from scratch except for the green square cake up front. We had over 30 people come so I didn't think we'd have enough with just the cake I made. BUT we did anyways. I really didn't need to buy it because a lot of people were so stuff on the awesome chinese food.

Here we've got candy sushi and fried rice cupcakes.

More candy sushi and Lo Mein cupcakes

Takara did not like being sung to. In fact it took a good while before we could convince her she was having fun at her birthday party. She kept whining and saying I want to go home. Then after the whole shindig she decided she didn't want to go home.

Here are a few of the guests. From right to left we've got Grandma Allred, Great Aunt Judy, Grandpa Kawano, Grandma Kawano, Amanda Shuler, Darci Shuler, Great Uncle Lenny, and Charlie Kawano.

Here is the birthday girl showing some of her presents

We had such a great time and I have to remember to make a HUGE thank you card for Chinatown! They made (on their day off!) all the food and delivered it for Takara's gift! Its been good to wind down after a week like this but it will all start up again here soon. We'll celebrate New Years Eve and my birthday in a couple days...Party on.

Annnd we're having another one??

Some days I really wonder what makes me think I can handle another baby? For the last few nights Takara will not sleep in her room, which is odd because she loves that it is HER room and always kicks us out when its time for bed. Kimi has always had problems sleeping on her own and she comes in almost every night. So needless to say we have been up playing musical beds, but instead of music we hear screaming and crying. Evan brought home a large box of yummy oranges and they just so happen to be one of Takara's top favorite foods. So in the middle of the night Takara woke up screaming and demanding an orange. Kimi woke up and well there went our night of sleep.

This morning I was dragging around from our sleepless night and get the girls breakfast (oranges who'd have thought). I leaned back in my chair put on some cartoons and thought ok now if I could get a little rest...life would be good. Kimi sat on my lap and Takara decided to watch kai lan in her room. A few minutes later Kimi gets down and comes back to me with a pair of scissors! My panic level rises. In comes Takara, covered COVERED in black sharpie marker. I jump up run in her room and find that she has colored on her sheets, Kimi's bedding, the wall, the tv! WHY WHY WHY then I see it.. A BIG CHUNK OF HAIR! I grab Takara run her to the shower when I open the curtain my whole bottle of body wash was emptied down the drain. That was the last straw. But being a mom and having two kids you learn you can't snap...you can't. Thats how people lose their kids and go to jail. I don't want to do anything to deserve going to jail but I honestly wouldn't mind being locked up in a room by myself for a little while. Now as most everyone knows this isn't the first...or *sigh* the last time anything like this will happen. In this icky weather I don't blame Takara for being restless. So to save myself from having another episode like this I decided that would could bake a cake. Takara seemed to like that! So I guess I just need to find more activities for us to do. On the upside I dyed my hair back to a warm brown color last night, I actually love it! Tonight is the Biggest Loser finale, and we've rented The Other Guys so hopefully the rest of the night will be uneventful! Now for some pregnancy pictures!

Tested at 3 weeks 2 days...I didn't know it would show up on a test this soon

Sorry a little blurry but here I am at 5 weeks, I have some extra baggage from the previous pregnancies but now it just pushes it right out there

7 weeks...what the heck! I'm huge already.

7 Weeks

This pregnancy has definately been different than the others. But I've been hearing a lot of people say their 3+ pregnancies are a little more uncomfortable. I feel like I'm falling apart at the joints. I have aches similart to those when you have the flu. If this keeps up or gets worse Evan may only be able to talk me into doing this one more time. The way the first two pregnancies went I could have had unlimited kids just because it was SOOO easy. I'm sure everyone is S-I-C-K of hearing my complaints...the reason I know this is because I'm sick of hearing myself complain. I've never felt like such a whinner so starting after this blog, I'm going to try to think positive thoughts and direct my attention away from myself so that I can enjoy myself more. Anyways today I am making christmas baskets for some of our friends. I started pretty early because I had to be up to babysit my nephew Trenton, so Ive already made brownies, pumpkin bars, chocolate chip cookies and rice krispy treats. Hopefully I can get everything ready to go by time Evan gets home so that we can get ready for the Marathon Company Christmas party deliver the baskets and head up to Cody. Maybe I can sneak a quick nap in the middle of it all. I love this time of year but I'm not looking forward to the start of January. All the big holidays are over with and its still cold outside. I love when its warmer outside and I can load the kids up and go to the park or just let them out the front door and play right here. I wouldn't mind taking them sledding or just play out in the snow except it seems like we get snow, the next day it warms up a little, it melts into slush, makes mud, then gets cold again and freezes. Well I better finish up this post. Its lunch time and I've got a couple hungry girls!

6 weeks and counting...slowly

I originally started this blog to keep my family up to date on our lives since they live in Montana. So when I posted about being pregnant I didn't think anyone else would see it! Not that I mind now it was just a surprise that random people were asking me about it and everyone we had told was sworn to secrecy :) But anyways Evan and I were talking about having another baby starting in January. Well apparently we have not learned from the past. Once my mind decides I'm going to have a baby..BOOM I'm pregnant. No trying needed. Yeah that easy. One of the first signs that Ive had every time was hot flashes, weird I know. Not just a little heat wave a blast of heat that makes me break out in a sweat then shiver after the sweat cools off. This pregnancy has definitely been different so far, that means nothing to me as far as determining gender. I found out crystal clear at only 3 weeks 2 days...is that crazy?! But knowing me I'll find out early and carry overdue, always happens. I don't know what really made me take a test, maybe because I couldn't keep my feet under the blankets at night, the "hot flashes" I dont' know but I woke up in the middle of the night and in the dark, took a test. I laid it down not bothering to check it and thought it will be there when I wake up. Evan left for work and I got up and saw the test, 2 bright lines! I was shocked, so I thought ok maybe I left it too long, so I decided to take another one, both lines showed up immediately. I was so excited but the reality sunk in...this baby would be due right around Kimi's birthday. When I told Evan he said REALLY?! Hmm that wasn't very good planning on our part was it? A couple days later we went to Chinatown and Mei came over and poked my belly and said are you going to have a baby? I was excited to tell but embarrassed that I have a big enough gut for the question to be asked with the due date at almost full length.
So far I've been a little queasy every day, usually if I don't eat frequently, which freaks me out a little. That just spells getting fat...overly fat. With my other pregnancies I wasn't sick at all...in fact I was able to eat just about anything and do anything I wanted. I only puked a couple times with Takara, first time being the plane ride back from Patricks wedding in California, and Im pretty sure it wasn't due to pregnancy. You see whenever I've been on planes they come around with the beverage cart and hand you a little cup and fill it up and only on some airlines actually give you the rest of the can. Well this airline not only gave me a can but kept coming back wanting to know if I wanted more! Well hot diggity! I'm not going to pass on a ton of free drinks I mean what are they like .50 a piece! Well you won't believe my choice of drink, even now I can't believe it. Tomato juice...thats right can after can of it within an hour flight. When we got to our destination we hit some turbulence. Did you know that those little barf bags only hold about 1 can worth of liquid...now the one can limit makes more sense. So while I filled bag after bag Evan was trying to hold his pretzels down and his little sister rubbed my back. I can't even stand the sound of puking let alone touch someone while they are puking. Another thing...they make you hold on to those "filled" barf bags. We got to take them along until we found a garbage can in the airport.
With Kimi it was the smells and sight that got to me. Evan brought some farm fresh eggs home and so I thought ok that sounds good lets make some scrambled eggs. I cracked the eggs while talking to Evan not paying attention and when I started whipping them up with a little milk...up floats a green little feather (the more I think of this now I'm not sure what the crap it was) aaaaaand up came everything in my stomach. I grabbed the bowl and threw all the stuff in the garbage. Evan says why did you do that?! I couldn't go into telling the details just yet. so I got out the store eggs and made scrambled eggs from that. After awhile and all the food was gone, I started to tell Evan the story halfway through I dry heaved and took off to the bathroom for my second session of puking.
It seems like this pregnancy is going by slow. Probably because I found out so early. I was about 6 weeks each time I found out and I'm just now at that point. I was going to post a few picks of my 4 and 6 week belly (although I probably looked like this before I even got pregnant) but the girls lost the camera cord so I will have to go hunting for it. I'll post pics every couple weeks when I find it...watch me gggrrrooowww.